I'm in too foul a mood to write much today. I don't want to bitch about anything or anyone, so I'm better off keeping my mouth shut. I will be much better once I take Morgan home, and am in my own comfort zone.
I will say this - Morgan amuses me more and more with every day that goes by. She is starting to mimic my actions and to be amused by my silliness. Ever since yesterday, I started tapping my mouth whilst going "Aaaaaaaah" and then tapping hers. She opens her mouth, but no sound is emitted, prompting me to ask her how come hers makes no noise. She seems to be amused by it as it has evoked a few smiles from her end. This is our first official game =)
I will leave you with some of her cuteness before I run off to cook.
Catch you lot tomorrow!
P.S. Upon hearing himself bark, Pluto a.k.a. George started barking. Silly dog.
Stress levels are soaring. When this happens, no one is to take anything I say personal - I'm bound to get extremely snappy and pretty much nearly chew people's heads off.
I understand everyone is looking forward to Creature being here - I probably am the least one to feel that way. This is going to sound wrong on many levels - but if I could chicken out of it right now, I would actually consider it.
I hate not being in control of a situation I'm faced with. I'm not a control freak - it just tends to emerge whenever it is my life that we're discussing.
Before anyone says anything optimistic to me - thus making me want to shove their heads so far up their arses that the Human Centipede creator would die of envy for not using this concept in his movies instead - I am not looking for sympathy/empathy. I'm a realist by nature and excessive optimism pisses me off. D0on't tell me everything is going to be fine if it is not true and/or you don't have valid reasons to back up your argument.
This is exactly why I have not committed to having anyone in the delivery room with me. I know for a fact I would end up acting like a total jerk and then just end up putting myself through a huge guilt trip. Again - I don't want to hear that it is only natural to flip whilst giving birth. I don't care what is normal and what isn't. To hell with the norms.
This has not been the easiest pregnancy ever. To most, their pregnancy ends up being the happiest period of their life - or so they try to convince people. For me, it has had a few good days - but mostly it has just been a continuous nightmare where I have had to deal with huge volumes of crap. The drama is still not over, mind you. I doubt it will ever be.
I'm so tired of it all. I wish I could get away from reality for a few brief, refreshing moments. Creature has been the sole reason for me not to give up. I have been telling myself that it will all be worth it eventually. I hope that it will truly be the case.
You would think people would be more considerate when they will be potentially needing something from you - such as a business transaction.Well, you'd be wrong.
On Thursday I received a phone call from my landlady asking if I will be home on Saturday morning, as a real estate agent and a potential buyer wished to view the place. The place where I live is for sale - so even though it had been a few months since someone came to have a look at it, this was not unexpected. I said I would be - even though it was between 8am and 10am - silly o'clock in my books.
No one showed up. No one called, emailed or texted.
I thought that maybe the landlady forgot to contact me, and just shrugged it off. She called again today to say that she was contacted by the Agent again today who had not warned her that they did not show up, and to ask if I'll be home at around 4pm. I said I would be and would let her know if they don't show up.
Needless to say,by 5pm no one had come by. When I texted her, she said that again, no one contacted her- and that she called the Agent herself to find out what's up. Agent said the potential buyers got stuck in the rainstorm.
At this point in time, I'm tolerating this kind of crap. However, should something like this happen after Creature is born, there will be hell to pay.
Why?
Well, children need a strict routine. Otherwise life will become too difficult for you as a parent. This means that bedtime should be at a fixed hour. Waking up should too. Feedings as well.
Now, if someone tells me they'd be coming over at a specific time, I would have to make sure it does not disrupt Creature's schedule. If they show up late, then they'll just have to sod off and come back another time.
Another reason is going out. To go anywhere with a baby/toddler, it can take you a couple of hours to get both of you ready, and gather all you might need in a bag. Having someone not honouring their appointment means it would throw off the rest of the day.
This little rant will perhaps come in useful for those of you who are childless and/or forgot what it means to have a very young child to cater for in your household. If you agree to a plan, stick to it, or cancel way in advance. If you're running late, it should be common courtesy to warn the person waiting for you.
