Tomorrow is the day I rejoin the "Real World" - and quite frankly, the "Real World" sucks.
I'm trying to figure out the effin buses that will take me to work, since the ever-so-clever new Bus Company that took over about a year or so ago decided to remove the bus stop that was the closest to my work place.
For the coming 5 weeks, I'll barely be seeing Morgan other than whilst she's asleep - or half-asleep, anyway - and I'll see even less of HSS. This will be followed by another 7 weeks of barely seeing HSS but thankfully, of spending more time with Morgan. I can't wait til I'm on my proper shift so that I'll get some time with both HSS and Morgan - as it should be.
These past few months have been like a dream - spending every day with the two of them... Knowing that those days will now be over is somewhat painful. I'm way too aware of how quickly Morgan learns new things and how quickly she's growing. Spending time away from My Family will hurt.
At least, Morgan will be spending most of her time with family anyway. It just sucks being denied the opportunity to see her grow up step by step.
Cuddling up in front of the TV [1st July 2012]
I envy SATMs. Stay-at-home-Mums, that is. Or rather, Stay-at-home-Parents, anyway. I guess the grass is always greener on the other side. I know SATPs who are dying to go out in the Employment World - and Working Parents [like Yours Truly] who are dying to be with their child[ren] every single day.
I made my own bed, I know, and I will lie in it. I have to keep reminding myself that it will be better for Morgan in the long run, this way. I'll be able to provide for her financially much better than what I would be able to had I opted to quit my job and become a SATM.
And yet, I can't help but wish I could be a SATM.
Egoistically speaking, I am also what I commonly refer to as "meh" about not having as much time with HSS. It mainly is knowing that by the time we get 5 minutes together during which we can talk, we'll both be too tired to actually make the most out of it.
I woke up rather early and went out to buy supplies. I bought her these awesome heat sensing spoons by Tommee Tippee which change colour to show you that the food is hot, some freezer tubs, and lots of different foods by Organix. Once back home, I labelled the food fior easy recognition and put ti all away in Morgan's cupboard.
At first, I was finding it all to be way too daunting and was going to postpone the First Weaning Experience til the following day. I changed my mind a few moments later though as I was way too excited to give it a shot and see what happens!
HSS and I sat Morgan down in her highchair, and put on a bib round her neck. I chose the try out this thingy here first.
NOM! [25June2012]
I scooped up a tiny bit of food and fed it to Morgan. I held my breath to see what would happen.
What's this?! [25June2012]
Morgan's reaction seemed to be "What's this thing she's putting in my mouth? Why can't I suck on it? What's this new taste? THIS IS ALL SO STRANGE!! AND STOP TAKING PHOTOS OF ME WHILST I TRY TO FIGURE IT ALL OUT!!!!!!!!!"
"I'm so confused!!" [25June2012]
She was hungry and seemed to like it, but couldn't get how she was meant to do it. Her tongue kept darting in and out, dropping half of the food out of her mouth and down her cute little strawberry-shaped chin.
:D [25June2012]
HSS was taking shitloads of photos in the meanwhile, dancing around us with his phone, enjoying the scene unfolding in front of his gorgeous eyes, and yet being antsy due to wanting to try and feed Morgan himself but not really daring interrupt.
Having noticed his eagerness to give it a try, I handed over the spoon and my seat, and went camera-happy myself.
Hand-over completed! [25June2012]
The first spoonful fed to Morgan by HSS was accompanied by this tune here being hummed. I couldn't stop giggling at the nerdiness of it all. Poor Morgan is doomed! Muahahahaha.
"Why are you making strange sounds? AND WHY ARE YOU NOT FEEDING ME?!" [25June2012]
Morgan grew more and more perplexed but seemed to be enjoying the New Noms.
Omnomnomnomnomnom! [25June2012]
Morgan's tongue kept darting in and out, however she repeatedly lent forward towards the spoon, indicating she wanted more.
Food is fun! [25June2012]
It was really fun watching HSS and Morgan go through the whole process - this was one hell of a First for all three of us!
"Ok, just a little bit more." [25June2012]
After a short while, Morgan started getting frustrated at too many new things to deal with all at once - new flavours, new textures, new feeding method and new feeding equipment, and ultimately, sitting in a highchair instead of being held in our arms whilst being fed. She was clearly hungry, and not in the mood to keep experimenting for much longer.
Is it time for my milk yet?! IS IT?! [25June2012]
When she started showing signs of distress, we stopped the First Meal and gave her her bottle as usual - which she drained happily.
Since then, we're trying the weaning thing twice a day - breakfast and lunch just before giving her her bottle. With every Feeding Session, she eats a little bit more, and is slowly getting the hang of it!
On other news, Morgan's second tooth is breaking through! This one is on the left bottom side - it is either a canine or a molar, I'm not entirely sure. Tiny gums with no teeth make it difficult to say until the tooth emerges completely. Poor girl is in quite a bit of pain lately - however thankfully the Dentinox Teething Gel seems to do the trick in soothing her.
I'm currently trying my best to make the most out of the remaining days before this week is through. Monday is Back To Work for me. Eh, I'm dreading it to be honest - not because I don't like the job - I do. I missed it actually! I'm just not looking forward to spending so little time with Morgan and HSS. Morgan discovers something new every day - at least one thing evolves in her behaviour and in her physical appearance. Her First Word, First Crawl, First Step and a plethora of other Firsts are bound to happen at any given moment - and I'm likely to miss out on those milestones. I wish I could be a Stay-At-Home Mum, however it is in Morgan's best interest that I be a Working Mum.
